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05:06am on Tuesday, 2/14/06 ] |
can i have your email-address, please?
i'm too lazy to go through all the userinfos [haha, go me.], and some aren't listed.
comments are screened :)
Happy Valentine's Day, by the way :)
i wonder if i have plans? o.O
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10:40pm on Sunday, 2/12/06 ] |
i have "pink eye" [viral conjunctivitis] in my left eye and it hurts. =/
and people are fucking liars and i am sick of two-faced backstabbers.
...but it's okay, because i'm scum, too. so, i more than likely deserve it.
::sighs::
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04:07am on Sunday, 2/12/06 ] |
went to the park yesterday [saturday]. we have more pictures, but here are just two for now:
( isnt he the cutest??? )
that's all for now at 4am, sunday morning >.< =/
'cept for a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to JESY!! [![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) marionette ]
=D
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12:56pm on Saturday, 2/11/06 ] |
awwwwe, kaidan is totally crawling and holding onto things and lifting himself up into a standing position. i thought these days would never come!
i place him across the room then go sit on the couch and lean forward and put my hands out and say "kaidan! come to mommy! come here!!" and he starts crawling along, with his head held high, with the hugest grin on his face cause he's so proud =D then he gets to me and since i have my hands outward, he places his hands in mine, then pulls himself up and walks the rest of the way to me =D
so now he is zooming all over the place, from toy to toy. it's so adorable. i missed him so much!
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01:11pm on Friday, 2/10/06 ] |
it was fucking AWFUL
::cries::
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09:48pm on Thursday, 2/9/06 ] |
oh my god, you guys.
have you seen that Publix commercial. the Valentines day one with the mom and son?
it totally just made me cry. it's SO sweet.
longer update soon! watching beauty and the geek, right now. this show makes me feel so good about myself. haha
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11:55am on Thursday, 2/9/06 ] |
wow. i actually have a lot to say.
i pretty much talked for the entire hour. plus 15 minutes. whoops.
it was mainly getting some background information and then learning where i generally stand as of now. that's a LOT of information.
felt good to talk, though. and have someone seemingly genuinely care/listen. who knows if she did or not, though. it's just her job. but she seemed nice enough, and i was bored and lonely enough, so i blabbed. and blabbed and blabbed and blabbed.
she wants to see me every week. which is kind of odd. since even when i was a "screwed up adolescent" i think i only went once every two weeks. oh well. i'm not complaining. and am even looking forward to next thursday.
daniel has his session tonight at 4 with the male counselor. i wish i could go so i know what he says >.< i should have him bring the recorder and tape it all. haha. i am so nosey.
uhmm, yeah. i guess that's it. i am exausted for "some" reason so i think i am going to go lay down...
cat scan tomorrow. pretty nervous. plus not looking forward to the stupid drink they ALWAYS have to give you before they do ANYTHING medical. GOD, give me a break! that stuff is SO awful. it always is. and i need to drink it within 15 minutes. the last time i had to drink it, i vomittedit up a million times and they couldnt even perform the cat scan. yeah. it's THAT bad.
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06:10am on Thursday, 2/9/06 ] |
http://www.realtor.com/Prop/1054305915
http://www.realtor.com/Prop/1053708023
http://www.realtor.com/Prop/1053120357
http://www.realtor.com/Prop/1053440309
south elgin, IL
I want a hooooooooome :(
So, pretty much thanks to Lindsay, my new state obsession, besides Ohio, is Illinois.
www.realtor.com is my friend and i can't stop browsing. i have only looked at 75 pages [of 376!] of a smaaaallll part of illinois, about 40 miles south of Chicago, and i am already in love.
GOSH i cannot wait to grow up. i want adult-money and adult-living and adult-life.
sadly, this wont happen for another 5-6 years or so :(
and i want to travel, and soon. been looking at airfares at http://www.airtran.com/ and am happily surprised. i found some real great deals - $49 each way and such. which is awesome. but you have to take into account hotels [$400-$500 a week, i've found] and probably a rental car [$150 per week, i've found]. money sucks. [well, lack there of.]
i have my psychologist appointment in, like, 3 hours. i am SO tired, as i've been up since 3, but up and down all night. i've been having major problems sleeping. and i want to just crawl into bed for the day but i have to go to this stupid thing. and talk to some stranger who doesn't even KNOW me who will be judging me. and this is coming from someone who wants to be a social worker/youth counselor. oye vey.
i want my little guy :(
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05:42pm on Wednesday, 2/8/06 ] |
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So, i just got home not too long ago from everywhere. heh
i left at around 10:30am to meet Lindsay [heartsncrafts] at her house, then drive over to the "Orlando Wetlands Park".
["wow, did someone engrave that into the bench? it looks really well done!" "Linds, what does it say?" "OWP...? oh... orlando wetlands park.." hahah :P ]
it was real pretty, but a little too cold for much more than birds to be squandering about. we did see two hawks building a nest, though. it was such a beautiful sight :)
i'm sorry we didn't walk around more... i was pretty much dying from leg and intestinal pain. i thought i was going to double over and cry out in pain right there on the trail, but i tried to stick it out the best i could. i guess my body just isn't up for ANYTHING. i felt awful that we only walked around for like, what? 30 minutes? if that. i would've loved to explore a bunch more.... :/
so after that, we went out to eat. ANOTHER mistake. i was so hungry, so i couldnt resist ordering something, even though i knew i was going to pay for it later. and i did. and still am. but it was a nice time with Linds. Got to talk about a lot of things. and hearing all about her crazy family is always entertaining.
after that she drove me back to my car and i attempted to go to the mall. i did what i needed to do in BedBath&Beyond, and wanted to go the the scrapbook store and maybe walk around a little more, but i didn't feel like i was going to survive even a walk back to my car. i drove to the post office to ship something off, then headed home and here i am, having just read my friend's page and such.
yeah, i skipped my 3o'clock doc's appointment. i never went to go get bloodwork [why on earth would i WILLING go get jabbed with needles???] so there was basically no point in going to the appointment. it was irresponsible of me to just skip it without notice, though. oh well. i hate doctors.
tomorrow morning i have my psychologist session, and daniel has his at 4pm. not really looking forward to it. i'd rather be sleeping. or, at least, lying in bed, rather than talking to someone who just wants to put me on medication and "make it all better". i've seen you before. you dont fool me.
i guess i'll go now. i'm sooo exhausted.
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09:08am on Wednesday, 2/8/06 ] |
i am in ORLANDO - why on earth am i so bored and lonely???
**note to self : friday's appt has been moved to 8:30am
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09:54pm on Tuesday, 2/7/06 ] |
I wish ice-cream places delivered.
i feel like i am pregnant. i just ate, like, half a jar of olives and now i am TOTALLY craving soft-served ice-cream.
i guess that's what i get after not eating anything for days and days on end and having nothing in the house to eat.
ice-cream, please?
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09:33pm on Tuesday, 2/7/06 ] |
( Ramblings about Thrice )
i guess that's all i wanted to babble about. i am sooo bored and lonely. i wish i had close-by friends that i could call up and ask to come over for some hot cocoa and a movie, or just chit-chatting.
I still havent gotten daniel anything for Valentines Day. usually i am all about holidays and giving and everything, but I guess I've just been so "blah" lately. I didn't even end out Valentines to you all! I feel awful about it, but i know you guys understand. Also, Daniel isnt into the whole "gift thing", anyway, it seems. giving or receiving. it's rather discouraging. Oh well, maybe i'll think of *something*. It wont be much, though. I was so excited about giving him his christmas gift and he hasnt even used it once. after all that trouble i went through. ugh. boys are lame.
okay well, my stomach is starting to act up pretty badly, so imma go lay down.
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02:25pm on Tuesday, 2/7/06 ] |
So, tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment.
Thursday Daniel and I have our counseling sessions. And how this is going to work is first we both see two different people individually for a few sessions, then we come together into a couple's therapy.
Friday I have my cat scan to see how bad my small intestines are. And I am guessing pretty bad since I can barely move because i am SO sore =/
Friday is also Lindsay's [heartsncrafts] birthday get-together. I picked up her gift today. I hope no one else got her the same thing. haha Hopefully not. She's SO easy to shop for. i could have easily gotten 384346 more things, and I wanted to! Had money permit. I really hope I am up for it, though. As of now, I can't even get out of bed and I have no energy.
We did end up going to PSL this weekend. I needed to see kaidan... I miss him SO much... We were there from saturday afternoon until sunday evening and it was definitely not enough time =/ He stayed there, so i'm missing him tremendously... I'll see him this weekend, though. But this weekend is going to be pretty much unbearable. Bob's memorial ceremony is Sunday morning. I don't even know if I CAN go. It's going to be so hard. Especially since it's at a church, before their sunday service. Let's all praise God - the ultimate being who took away one of the most amazing men i have ever met, for no reason. You have no idea how angry it all makes me.
Oh, and, no one go see the movie "When A Stranger Calls", or whatever. It's awful.
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11:15am on Saturday, 2/4/06 ] |
didn't sleep at all last night...
went to sleep around 6am, but woke up at around 9 and can't go back to sleep. too many things on my mind, i suppose. and too many pains in my body...
how ridiculous is he being?? http://dizzyflower.livejournal.com/207269.html?thread=949413#t949413
I'M psycho and twist things around? I am remained calm and collect through that whole thread. And all he has to respond with is "omg ur fkn psychos!!11!" whatever. i am so over it.
http://www.realtor.com/Prop/1044135040
i want that house. BADLY.
anyway, i think we are going to attempt to go to PSL. this weather sucks.
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08:56am on Thursday, 2/2/06 ] |
( i miss my little guy: )
he's so goofy. that's him with my mom. the GRANDMA. haha. i made her old.
so, a lot of not-good things have been going on. well, besides me not being able to walk or function because of a bunch of different pain problems [which i was so greatly accused of being a "pos" and "lazy" about. thanks "best friend" spencer.]
my mom and daniel's mom and desiree offered to watch kaidan for this week while daniel and i come back up here so i can get some things done for myself and so i could rest up. call after call has been made and the stupid insurance STILL hasnt authorized my Remicade IV infusion medication. but whatever. not like it would work anyway, right? i mean, come on, this is MY life. when does anything ever work?
I have some blood-work to go get taken care of and a cat scan next week of my small intestines because while they are able to look through the large intestines through a surgery called a colonoscopy, the small intestines are just too small to examine in that way.
( more detailed description of, well, everything. )
sorry if it's TMI. YOU clicked it =P but yeah.. that's that.
so i am just trying to get things done, and i am. i just wish i could do more while the little guy isn't here. like CLEAN. this place is so gross. but i cant bend down and even stand up long enough to do much of anything. laundry is the only thing i can seem to accomplish, and there's only so much laundry you can do.
but i have a bunch of calls to make, so i should get started on those in a bit. i didn't realize it was already 9am.
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12:47am on Wednesday, 2/1/06 ] |
A big happy birthday to:
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10:53pm on Monday, 1/30/06 ] |
i love this little man: 
....and i hate my immigrant neighbors. they will NOT shut up and will NOT stop blasting their music. it's MONDAY for goodness sakes. i wish i wasn't such a wuss so i could call the authorities on them =/
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09:08pm on Monday, 1/30/06 ] |
if our nextdoor neighbors don't chill out with their fucking fiesta, i am going to throw their dog shit, that is in OUR yard mind you, at them.
i hate them.
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06:44pm on Monday, 1/30/06 ] |
Uhmm.. funniest thing ever:
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=5752494390378871865&q=bush%2Bedited
and i am in the worst pain ever. i hope you guys have no idea. i am scared to death. i dont know how much longer i can take this
and i haven't checked my friend's list yet, but marionette, i hope you are feeling a ton better. i've been so worried =/
maybe a longer update later. i certainly cant concintrate right now.... :*(
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